Babies

I want another baby. There I said it and boy did it feel good. I don't feel like I can say that in real life. People are always asking if I want another baby. I always say no and explain that DS was a preemie and I am not going through that or putting a baby through that again. I know people have done it sucussfully and I am so happy for them, but it's not a risk I am going to take. I always thought I would have three children. As DS gets older I look at pictures of him as a baby and think where did the time go? How did he just grow up before my eyes? And being a preemie I worried about EVERYTHING, did he eat enough, would he grow, would he walk. I would love to be able to have a baby and not worry so much. I find myself more and more asking to hold friends' babies and getting that dreaded baby fever. I love my son so much and he is such a blessing. I just don't feel like my family is complete yet.