Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Babies

I want another baby. There I said it and boy did it feel good. I don't feel like I can say that in real life. People are always asking if I want another baby. I always say no and explain that DS was a preemie and I am not going through that or putting a baby through that again. I know people have done it sucussfully and I am so happy for them, but it's not a risk I am going to take. I always thought I would have three children. As DS gets older I look at pictures of him as a baby and think where did the time go? How did he just grow up before my eyes? And being a preemie I worried about EVERYTHING, did he eat enough, would he grow, would he walk. I would love to be able to have a baby and not worry so much. I find myself more and more asking to hold friends' babies and getting that dreaded baby fever. I love my son so much and he is such a blessing. I just don't feel like my family is complete yet.

2 comments:

carebear said...

Hi! I saw your link on The Nest and decided to stop by. I was blessed to have one healthy baby carried to term and am now going through a high risk pregnancy were the doctors will take the baby any time after 28 weeks. I understand your feelings. I always have wanted three children too...but I don't think I'm strong enough to do this again and it's not even over. My hubby and I won't say never, but I know it will be a heavily thought out decision. Good luck to you!

Anonymous said...

Wow! I have been through a miscarriage and know the feeling and anxiety that comes with begin pregnant again. Your son is beautiful and looks like he is thriving. Good luck to you in the future.